Four years ago, I left my hometown to go to college seven hours away. I thought I knew what I was doing. I thought I had everything figured out. I thought everything was going to be perfect–new friends, all A’s, and always feeling like I belonged. Ah isn’t hindsight 20/20? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Fast forward to four years later and I am beginning my nine-hour drive to school, once again, to get the required education I need to fulfill my purpose of serving others through medicine. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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This time is a lot different, though. I know I don’t have everything figured out. I know every day won’t be perfect. I know that some days will be lonely. I know I will miss my loving family and friends at home. I know I will be challenged academically, emotionally, and spiritually. And I know there will be times when I feel like, “maybe this just isn’t for me.” ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I know. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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But do you know what else I know? I know there is an army of people who have my back when I feel like I am stumbling and getting ready to fall. I know there are young girls gazing at my strength though acknowledge my vulnerability waiting for me to succeed. I know that what I learned as a writer–to give a voice to those whose voices are diminished–is what will be my superpower in this next stage in my life.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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But most importantly, I know that this is way bigger than me. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I think it is okay not to know. I think there is a sign of growth in the ability to admit that you don’t know everything. I am okay with not knowing every detail of my life because I am down to rest in giving all of that worry to Him, the one who knows all. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” So, be brave, trust God, take the leap and complete your mission. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Here is to new beginnings rooted in faith.
