To the girls who thought they would love him forever…trust me, I get it. I know what it feels like to have your heart completely ripped out of your chest. I know what it is like to look at that heart, your heart, just laying on the ground covered in bruises, shards of glass, bullet wounds, and lacerations. I know what is is like to try to patch up those wounds with band-aids and sometimes ignore that they are even there. I know what it is like to try to piece together the broken pieces with anything and everything around in attempt to just even have a quarter of it back to normal.
Do you remember your first love? Yes, the one who you thought you would be with forever. Me too. I remember thinking “God, this is it!” I thought everything was perfect. Well, I convinced myself that everything was perfect…until it wasn’t. You know what moment I am talking about. The moment when you realize that this relationship that you brain washed yourself into believing was a happy princess fairytale like all of those countless Disney movies you watched (and still watch if you are me) until it was too late. And then I too was staring at my heart, laying on the floor, defeated, exhausted, and gasping for breath.
That was the moment I found love, true love.
No it wasn’t in the form of man. It was God. God does this funny thing in life where when you think you are in control and feel like “you don’t need God” (Now don’t pretend like I am the only one who has had this feeling) He lets you run free and wild as you choose. But after some time, when things don’t go as planned and you come crawling back with tears, pain, and in your hands the same heart that you spent hours looking at on the floor, He is there, arms wide open, no questions asked.
That, girls, is the love I am trying to have forever.
I found an unconditional type of love that no man could ever give me. HE taught me that love doesn’t hurt. It isn’t selfish. It doesn’t scare you. It doesn’t make you cry. It doesn’t pressure you. It doesn’t make you choose. His love is different than what I thought love was before.
So to the girls who thought they would love that guy forever. Look how much you have learned. Look how much you have grown. If nobody has told you yet, I am so proud of you. Look in the mirror blessed, brilliant, beauty because you are clothed in so much strength as the Bible says. But most importantly, I want you to first forgive that guy. Whatever happened, however he made you feel, just forgive him for the sake of your own heart. Second, I want you to look at yourself in the mirror and say these words (It’ll be hard. Sometimes I still tear up saying them.) Say, “I lived through it. I thank God for the lessons I learned from it. But now, it is over.”
Wanna know what real love is?
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
–1 Corinthians 13:4-8New International Version (NIV)
Just wait my blessed, brilliant, beauty. God has someone in store for you beyond your imagination. Thank goodness, we didn’t end up loving that guy who we thought would be our forever. Always remember, you are blessed, brilliant, and beautiful!
<3 TD
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