Hey blessed, brilliant, beauties! So just a quick recap on my life since I have been away. I just moved into my first apartment with my best friend and we are ready and excited to start our sophomore year of college together! However, over the past week or so, this idea of internal value has been dwelling on my heart.
Around me a lot of my friends and teammates have been dealing with breakups, bad grades, and even broken friendships. It seems as if, especially as girls, we are so hard on ourselves when it comes to those types of disappointments in our lives. Now I can’t speak for everyone and every situation but personally, when these things happen to me, I find that I unfortunately seem to devalue myself. I start to think about all the things I could’ve done to avoid the situation, all the texts I shouldn’t have sent, and places I should have avoided. I develop this sort of “What if?” mentality. Regardless if whatever happened was my fault or not, I always find myself blaming my actions and thoughts because the perfectionist inside of me takes over and critiques my every decision previously made.
If you are like me, I want you to take a trip to the bathroom and look at yourself in the mirror. First, I want you to stare at that reflection staring back at you and forgive yourself, forgive the situation that happened, and forgive all the people that were involved. Second, I want you to repeat this scripture over and over out loud until you truly believe it. It is one of my favorite scriptures to recite when I feel scared, lonely, inadequate, or just not good enough.
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.
If God thought that you and I weren’t valuable enough he would not have made us so wonderful. He would not have created us as the beautiful, kind, and caring individuals that we are. Regardless of what you have done or what has happened to you, you don’t get to devalue yourself because God has already placed an immeasurable amount of value on your life that you can’t even try to understand.
I would be lying if I told you it was going to be easy or there wouldn’t be nights where you felt alone and your bed was soaked with tears. But, you are more valuable than you can imagine because you are a daughter of the Father, the King of ALL kings. You aren’t perfect but you were made through the perfect eye of God. We need to learn to stop allowing other people and situations to validate our value because at the end of the day, whatever happens to us, proverbs 31:25 says that we are clothed in strength and dignity and we will laugh without fear of the future.